I just spent my morning making little butterfly cakes for absolutely no reason other than I felt like it , and having made them got annoyed with any family member who attempted to eat one. I think I preferred looking at them... they are quite pretty..but don't last.
The half shade darker I managed to tan selective parts of myself on holiday is also fading... like summer, which I apparently missed. Why is it so dark at the moment? I'm refusing to believe it's autumn yet though, despite everyone telling me it is...
Anyway, I know I should be writing my personal statement instead of this right now... but I really really don't want to. University still scares me, there's no way I'm ready. Back to year seven anyone? Or even better... primary school... I miss playtime.
Friday, 29 August 2008
Tuesday, 26 August 2008
It's been a while...
...but i'm back :)
I'll excuse the lack of writing with the fact that I've been out of the country, to the crazy land of France where internet is apparently hard to come by, and difficult to use.
So anyway, I have returned! It feels good to be back... and quite a lot has happened. The biggest event probably being results day for anyone lucky enough to be going through the A-level experience. It seems overly dramatic that the whole future for some people rests on that one day, whether it's good or bad. I find myself willing everything to be ok, making stupid bets with myself that if I think hard enough it will turn out ok, despire being painfully aware it was already final weeks before. Predetermined? I still haven't decided if I believe in fate, and it's not that I think it's a stupid idea; I would happily believe in the philosophy of disney films if I could, but I have so many thoughts relating to the idea of fate that I find it too confusing to make sense of and ideas conflict. The same with coincidence, I know coincidence is real... but at the same time I don't disbelieve that there is more to life than mere coincidence. I think I need to hire someone to make sense of my own thoughts...
It's past my bedtime, I'm probably nonsensical and delirious.
More soon
:)
I'll excuse the lack of writing with the fact that I've been out of the country, to the crazy land of France where internet is apparently hard to come by, and difficult to use.
So anyway, I have returned! It feels good to be back... and quite a lot has happened. The biggest event probably being results day for anyone lucky enough to be going through the A-level experience. It seems overly dramatic that the whole future for some people rests on that one day, whether it's good or bad. I find myself willing everything to be ok, making stupid bets with myself that if I think hard enough it will turn out ok, despire being painfully aware it was already final weeks before. Predetermined? I still haven't decided if I believe in fate, and it's not that I think it's a stupid idea; I would happily believe in the philosophy of disney films if I could, but I have so many thoughts relating to the idea of fate that I find it too confusing to make sense of and ideas conflict. The same with coincidence, I know coincidence is real... but at the same time I don't disbelieve that there is more to life than mere coincidence. I think I need to hire someone to make sense of my own thoughts...
It's past my bedtime, I'm probably nonsensical and delirious.
More soon
:)
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